There’s always going to be the circumstances you can’t plan for. There’s always the unexpected relevance and the serendipity – Jason Silva

I was recently invited to a wedding by my friend in college. Surprisingly, I was confused and flattered at the same time for we weren’t classmates at all – yet we were good friends. In fact, he was from the college of Architecture while I was from AB. But how we got to know each other is where my story begins.

When I was in College I would normally go to the church (though it may be unbecoming of me) after classes and wait for my friends in the college of Architecture. Then the fun begins.
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The moment I stepped into UST church, I immediately said my hello to the groom (Dodjie) and my “kababata” (Roy) who was part of the entourage. But what struck me the most during this moment was seeing the donation box which said “need help?”. My lips began to arc as this was the moment I came back down memory lane. This donation box had a very cute incident with me and a teenage crush.

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This donation box has a very significant meaning in my life. Apparently, it hasn’t move an inch since I graduated and is still situated on the same place where I remember it from.

A couple of years back during college (trust me, in ain’t that long ago), I was fervently infatuated to this girl who were classmates with my kababata and the groom. I became so close to their barkada that I became part of their circle. I was even more friends with them than with my own block mates. I was sincerely being friends with all of them and at the same time, shylingly closing the distance between me and my teenage crush. So there was this one time that I intended to surprise her on her birthday. My friends gave me a tip that she’d be around UST church at 6 am the day of her birthday. My class was at 7 am, so ano ba naman yung pumasok ako ng mas maaga para lang batiin yung crush ko ng happy birthday di ba? Unfortunately, my plan never materialized as I woke up late and arrived at the church around 7:30 am and no one was inside the church. I blew my chance. So then I stood there disappointed and I started to pray. While praying, my eyes got the attention of the donation box that said at that time “need a friend?”. I shrugged and smiled and said to myself “Thanks God”.

Shortly after my prayers, it seemed that God had the answer. In an almost miraculous fashion, I saw a looming maroon architecture uniform at the side of my eyes. Holy molly, it is “her”. My heart was pounding fast, I was turning red and I couldn’t explain the joy that I felt at that moment. It was indeed a miracle for me. I waited for her to finish her petitions and waited outside. When she was done I approached her at the lobby and she was surprised that she fell on the steps. Like a romantic movie, it gave me an opportunity to grab her things and finally tell her her first happy birthday of the day. At that moment, I was so flustered that I awkwardly asked her to hand an Our Lady Peace CD to my friend just to be able to initiate a conversation.

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I was praying exactly where the guy in black is standing when she came to my right side a couple of meters away. The donation box was sitting right to me left.
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Our Lady Peace got their name from a poem by Mark Van Doren that has the same title.

That was probably one of the most unforgettable moments of my very uneventful college life. I remember sharing it to my friends as a “Got to Believe” moment as this movie was predominant at that time. Though we didn’t end up with each other, I am overly fond of those moments. A year later, I got a much better relationship. A relationship that that’s like whiskey getting much better as the years pass. I accidentally became intimate with my block mate. She unconditionally took care of me. Back then, I had a bloated ego and she weathered every episode of it. She would take care of me when drunk, she would lend me notes, and the best part is that she would lend me her best playstation games. She is the perfect companion I’ve ever met. Now, she is one of mybest friends, my confidant, my strength. She is currently engaged and I am so happy for her. My relationship to her has stood the test of time and I consider ours as a treasure. I must say that my love for her will be ‘til the end of my existence.

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These were the lobby steps in which she fell and I hurriedly helped her.

Back to the present, coincidentally, I fell so deep for someone who’s from the same college, AB. Believe me, this is only the second time that I felt this strong for someone. So intense, that I feel like she has a great purpose in my life. I mean, we all know that every person we encounter has a purpose in our lives, but she is different. Though she will probably never know and understand, sabi nga sa quote: “The best kind love is the one you can’t explain”. Nevertheless, she is linked to someone else. So I needed to back off in respect to the other person. At times I wanted to know her more, but I can’t ask for more what she can give. I then understood what “Someday you will realize that some people will remain in your heart but not in your life” meant.

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You’ve already won me over in spite of me

To cap all these stories, the wedding day was truly remarkable to me and it made me savor life in the present and reminisce on the past. It made me realize how much I’ve grown and where I am now. My definition of love has grown and expounded by these experiences. And as I embark this journey they call life, I will encounter more love and hardships and in the end of it all there will always be hope. So in your life’s journey, how are you doing?

Congrats to Dodjie and Rose! God bless!


Keep close to Nature’s heart and break clear away, once in awhile, and climb a mountain or spend a week in the woods. Wash your spirit clean

– John Muir

There’s a place that I went to where buildings and establishments were covered in lianas.

It seemed that the technology used here has life – meaning organic not synthetic. A system in which life-energy itself make things move and everything breathes life. Think of it like smart phones were replaced by tree leaves and huge timbers as automobiles. All things have life here.

A canopy of Entada gigas that has formed over a monkey ladder vine (Bauhinia glabra) on Kauai, Hawaii.

It occurred to me that the liana is the life source and it holds all life. They were more in the shade of red, yellow to orange rather than green. Though some parts of it where dark green that it appears to be black. It glows and pumps life to all. It’s a world where earth’s consciousness is the law and ruling class. It has feeder roots that vary in different shapes and sizes. It spreads on the floor, the walls, the ceilings and it is literally everywhere. But this world is far from the looks of a jungle though it looked somewhat like it. This is where civilization and nature has harmoniously nourished. This place is extremely sublime.

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The place looked somewhow like this. All though it isn’t dystopia. It was teeming with life.

The first time that I was there, though I could remember only few, I felt scared and intimidated. But all dissipated seeing such spectacle and immediately I was in awe the second time around.

I was mesmerized on how things worked. Here, I was an employee of a big corporation. A corporation that harnesses the earth’s core energy and share it to the wholeness of humanity. With this abundance, everything was so peaceful. Everything is in the right place.

I was wandering around the vicinity. I was observing the people. We all wore the same clothes of formal white with yellow and light green linings. Everyone looked radiant and natural. There was no reason to be envious because everyone was governed by the loving spirit of mother earth. Everyone worked according to their purpose. According to their roles. Everyone lived according to their noble intentions.

I went in an elevator ran by a humungous root of a tree. I can barely remember exploring each floors and most were hazy in my mind. All I could remember is walking into this very long hall. Just walking. Walking. Walking… Then I woke up.


Apple Bird by Araw Sun

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A rare beauty in the North. She’s the finest lady on earth. A glance from her, the whole city goes down. A second glance leaves the nation in ruins. There exists no city or nation that has been more cherished than a beauty like this. A rare beauty in the North. She’s the finest lady on earth. A glance from her, the whole city goes down. A second glance leaves the nation in ruins. There exists no city or nation that has been more cherished than a beauty like this.

Apple bird, you’re a bomb that set my whole world on fire

A fiery explosion that majetically burned everything into golden glittering ashes

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Medium to plus size apple bird, how I wish I could feel the sides of your plump rainbow colored breasts

Your cloak of pink and white, elegant in the grey, in the middle, the somewhere in between

Hovering above the blue and perfect skies, brave apple bird, you’re the rarest among your species, the classiest and the most intriguing

You’re scent must be a fantasy, you’re pheromones so strong it attracts the same poles, the same roles, the same souls

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The flowers here can hardly be called flowers. Real flowers bloom in the wilderness.

Apple bird, you’re a treasure more valuable than any other

A priceless pearl coveted by the unruliest pirates of the chauvinistic seas

Sanguine and scarred apple bird, how I wish I could tuck my face into your bosom and live more and more, if only if only, oh my lord oh my lord,

You soar higher among the rest, alone undaunted, exuding courage, in a male dominated matrix jungle

Your devotion is your legacy, your heart, your face, your torso, your hips, you’re a myth,

You’re love must be sweet reverie, your heart so pure and kind it attracts the same poles, the same roles, the same souls

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You know I’m such a fool for you

For Sam