DAY 7
It has been three days since I returned home from Malaysia, and I am slowly recovering. For the first two days after arriving in Manila, my body was almost useless. I literally collapsed on my sofa, my head feeling like it was going to pop. I had a massive headache, a cough, a cold, and a high fever. It felt like my body was being purged. There was nothing I could do but sleep. Believe me, I have been pushed to exhaustion before, but nothing compares to this. It felt like I was dying.
A week earlier, I had the privilege of joining a Kriya Yoga program in Kedah, Malaysia. A friend invited me, and although I was reluctant at first, I eventually decided to register. I had no idea what to expect, but I had a strong feeling it wouldn’t be pleasant. Two weeks before my flight to Malaysia, my anxiety was at an all-time high. I had trouble sleeping, palpitations, and my mouth would often run dry. I felt unprepared, wasn’t practicing the required kriya (Shambhavi Mahamudra) in preparation for the program, there’s so much going on with my video production business and was eating compulsively out of stress. I was uninspired and overloaded. Despite this, I decided to “jump into the fire.” I told myself, “If I wait until I’m ready, that moment may never come.” So, I mustered enough courage and went, heedlessly.
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