A SECOND DEATH

DAY 7

It has been three days since I returned home from Malaysia, and I am slowly recovering. For the first two days after arriving in Manila, my body was almost useless. I literally collapsed on my sofa, my head feeling like it was going to pop. I had a massive headache, a cough, a cold, and a high fever. It felt like my body was being purged. There was nothing I could do but sleep. Believe me, I have been pushed to exhaustion before, but nothing compares to this. It felt like I was dying.

A week earlier, I had the privilege of joining a Kriya Yoga program in Kedah, Malaysia. A friend invited me, and although I was reluctant at first, I eventually decided to register. I had no idea what to expect, but I had a strong feeling it wouldn’t be pleasant. Two weeks before my flight to Malaysia, my anxiety was at an all-time high. I had trouble sleeping, palpitations, and my mouth would often run dry. I felt unprepared, wasn’t practicing the required kriya (Shambhavi Mahamudra) in preparation for the program, there’s so much going on with my video production business and was eating compulsively out of stress. I was uninspired and overloaded. Despite this, I decided to “jump into the fire.” I told myself, “If I wait until I’m ready, that moment may never come.” So, I mustered enough courage and went, heedlessly.

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DARKNESS FELL ON SID AND AYA

“Bakit pa binigay kung mawawala din lang” – Kitchie Nadal

Did you ever have something you loved so much but lost it along the way? Then you wonder why it causes so much pain after it has been gone. Soon after, regret creeps in thinking, If only I knew, I wouldn’t want to have it. Why did this had to happen? It is even more hurtful when this thing that you lost is love. This is the central plot of the song Darkness Fell which is on the soundtrack of the recent film by Viva entitled Sid and Aya – a romantic movie, nothing unusual, nothing special but it was worth watching. The song had a tragic ending; the film had an open ended ending but both had characters wanting something but it kept eluding them.

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IS INFIDELITY SOCIALLY ACCEPTED?

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I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you’re always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you’re not around, and the fact that you didn’t call. But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all – Kat Stratford  (10 Things I Hate About You)
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