“In a world where death is the hunter, my friend, there’s no time for regrets or doubts. There is only time for decisions” – Carlos Castaneda, Journey to Ixtlan
My name is Pepper. I am a senior journalist previously working for a major network in the Philippines. My life revolved on TV production for 8 years. It was also during these years that I’ve come to know my guide in my path of being a warrior shaman.
It was tough balancing a normal life and practicing shamanism at the same time. For the most part, I was focused more about my usual day to day grind. Little did I know that I was drowning myself in superficiality and superfluous things brought about by the social conditioning/programming of our society. I was plugged so hard I was living in a cage with all the rest. Fame. Money. Sex. Alcohol. These things made me happy for awhile. If things fall apart I’d always summon my shamanic being to find solace and respite. It took me years before I’ve finally come to accept that I had a very special purpose in this world. I needed to be broken in order for me to realize that the answers I’m seeking are no longer present in the world outside. The answers has always been within me.
My journey being a shaman was not an easy one. I’d always quote Cypher from the movie The Matrix telling myself that ignorance is bliss. Why didn’t I take the blue pill? I wanted a normal life. I wanted to be an average person. I wanted to be ordinary like the rest of the world but the universe had a different plan. I couldn’t unlearn what I already knew. My guide told me in 2012 that on December there’d be a great shift in man’s consciousness. At that time those words meant nothing to me. So I intended to know if I’m really cut out to be a shaman on December 21, 2012 – the last day in the Mayan calendar. In my vision I was walking on a long hallway in red carpet. With millions of two dimensional people, some pixelated, applauding and smiling as I pass by. I felt an indescribable comfort and inner peace. Yes I am a shaman, I am welcome here. This was the answer to my question.
As years passed, I thought that acknowledging my shamanic calling was enough but it didn’t end there. I was being called for a greater purpose. In 2016 I became one of the top notched producers being able to produce award winning episodics for an educational program. It was very fulfilling to be part of the best TV show on the best network with the best people. I was fulfilled but not satisfied. My questions went deeper. I was questioning the whole system. I was questioning the world. I was questioning myself.
“Why do I need to get celebrities in order for me to educate my viewers?”
“Why are celebrities behaving so? They feel so entitled – to what?”
“Who thought of putting a price in our faces?”
“Why is this company making me feel so perishable even after my exceptional performance?”
“If they are not allowing us to receive payments, gifts, even concert tickets from our case studies how sure are we that the top personnel are also complying with this?”
At first it was all ranting. Until the day came that the rants needed to be heard. I had a falling out with my superior. I had to fight the oppressive system being imposed to us. I had to stand up for my dignity. I could not bear the thought that the television ratings were more important than us operators. They glorify the name of the company that is really non-existent, non-living whilst we the main doers and substance of the company has yet to be recognized. We are slaves to the hallucinatory prestige of these colossal networks. I couldn’t help but see them as puppets with a tag on their necks saying: Business as usual. I had enough. I awakened. I left the TV business that has kept me alive for the most part of my life.
Then it suddenly dawned into me that the solution to the worlds problem and our personal problems will not be resolved thru politics, entertainment or money making we need a spiritual awakening.
I spent four days of fasting with only water and meditation for my nutrition. As my known world was crumbling down I began to create a new one. A life of uncertainty. Drifting in the open ocean with God’s love keeping me afloat. Learning to fly once more like Peter Pan with a single happy thought I’d be dancing in the air.
I am now living discovering the power of my own creation. I am done playing the old charade and now I have emerge as a new being. Now, I am a multi-faceted being on the road to enlightenment. And as I discover the myriad faces of my persona, I have conceptualized ROGUE WOLF CREATIONS.
ROGUE symbolizes my defiance against the consuming environment of the giant media networks and WOLF being my totem animal. ROGUE WOLF CREATIONS aims to revolutionize the media industry by being truthful to its viewers and present a new reality that could empower them. We promote self-discovery with our innovative TV programs such as the FIRST JUMP SERIES that fused philosophy and documentary.
ROGUE WOLF CREATIONS aspires to be the leading Filipino internet streaming for original television and film series.We invite everyone to participate in our journey towards self-awareness and self improvement. Here, there are no heirarchies, no boundaries, no judgement and preconceptions. We only aim for the truth and the transcendence of mankind.